Im so excited for Eddie to come see me.
We're going to have a sleepover in the city.
Fun fun :-D
aint he cute?
^_^
I need plans tonight and i plan on getting fucked up my goal!!!!!
hahahahahaha got caught going into the city last friday so now im grounded
hardly a grounding anyway because i've had friends come over and
I havent been able to go out anyway because of christmas and shit
im probably getting off it anyway today to go to Mike's birthday thing
now onto Christmas....it was great 
favorite present is my hello kitty necklace
obv you can see why
only thing thats different about mine is the bow is red
<3333
So I liked John.
John tells me he likes some girl named Elena.
I then told John how I liked him.
Really emotional day there.
Fuck you Elena.
Went to Newark last night with Jacquie.
People there drive so crazy.
Just double parking like it's nothing, ugh.
Fuck you Newark.
It needs to be the weekend already.
the cutest thing happened today.
i was walking home and reading my book for english class and i passed this little kid.
he started talking to me and he was so adorable.
he asked me what book i was reading and what it was for and he had to be about 6 so his voice was adorable too. he even wished me a merry christmas and told me how he is having some german holiday tomorrow. he added in that he was born in bulgaria and was adopted which was random, but whatever.
it made me happy for some reason. awwww at the little boy!
sucker free countdown is the best thing ever EVER.
and me and mike are good again, I love him.
I really did fuck up.
Finally when Mike and I finally get the other Mike to break the pact and everything is good, it goes back to bad. Mike R found out how I did break the pact before a few times and I just came clean about it all. No point in lying about it at that point. He isnt talking to me and I know he wont be for a few days. I hope it's just days and not weeks or months. I hate that I fucked up so bad but nothing of this surprised me. I knew it would all come down to this point anyway so I've been preparing myself. I will admit that this will be a break from Mike that I needed but still, I cant lose this boy as a friend. He's my life and I hope he can come to terms and still love me and be my friend. Of course this taught me to never lie to him again about the drugs or drinking thing and if he does let me back in, whatever I do I will tell him. Before he found out we established that I could do whatever I wanted with drugs or drinking (I basically smoke cigs and drink sometimes, not like Im a coke addict) but still do everything in a way where I respect him (not getting wasted or becoming addicted to cigs or anything else for that matter). I've never fucked up this bad before, I hope everything goes back to us being best friends again. I really do,
